It is both a blessing and a curse.
I mourn the loss of my past, over 25 of my healthiest, productive years spent in useless cultish busywork. (Was a stupid, bloody CONVERT at the age of 20, woke up, or started the slow process of wakening up, when I was nearly 50!)
I think about the show The Matrix a lot sometimes, and I understand why the guy wanted to be plugged back in....!
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And I have also bawled my head off at their stupid emotional videos... It feels like being a little kid who just lost Santa Clause all over again.
We are innocent, trusting Drones no longer.
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(("... and this is what it sounds like, when doves cry..."))
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It's been over 5 years since I woke up, and I had been in it TOTALLY - "whole-heartedly" - and I hate their words now. They sicken me, literally.
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You are going through a loss, and a growth.
It is a process.... Yes, a journey. Look how many people post here, some even after being out for decades. Nobody else (unless having been through a similar experience) "gets" or understands what being a JW is really like. We may make new non-JW friends, yes, but they will never understand quite how .... surreal/ controlled/ fear-inspired (Armageddon, doing something wrong, being disfellowshipped, losing family thru shunning, facing persecution, on and on it goes) was our existence.
Becoming free is a process... A discovery... There will be some bumps and hurts, but there will also be magic and wonderful things too.....
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EDITED TO ADD:
DesirousOfChange: THANK YOU! Your words are SPOT ON!! I was almost getting morose there, your words shook me out of it!! Red pill (unless too old or fragile for such a rude awakening) all the way!!!